"To Be Safe, We Lose Our Chance Of Ever Knowing What's Around The Riverbend"

I guess it is the combination of listening to Pocahontas and having lunch with Amanda that has made me feel like I need to take more risks. I am the person who will never tell someone I like them unless they told me first. I could like someone and they will never know, luckily the guys I like I do actually end up dating, I guess my flirting is always obvious. I always seem to just have a boyfriend, which is good, but I've never just dated to see how things go. I find that now I am at an age when I just want to date. Now here is my dilemma. I don't know what to do when I have multiple guys telling me they like me, I never want to hurt anyone, that is the last thing I want to ever do. I feel like I would be cheating on one with the other if I go on a date with someone else or if I flirt with other people. But I always remember, I don't have a boyfriend, but I think out of respect I should never go on a date with one person and then another with someone else. I guess I just don't know what to do since I have never been in this situation. I know that I don't want to be in a relationship any time soon because I am just not into having anything serious right now. I just want to have fun, especially since summer is coming, I want to hang out with my friends at the beach and not have to worry about having a boyfriend to care about. I just want to live my life right now not knowing what is going to happen, and be spontaneous and take risks and have fun.
At lunch Amanda and I talked about our lives and guys, and I really wish I had the guts to says the things she thinks I should say, but I don't. Part of me just wishes I had the courage to say certain things to a person, or like she said "just invite him to lunch", but I don't want to risk looking stupid, but then I think I will always think about "what if". What if I do and he says yes. I am being vague because I am pretty sure I just decided I wanted to act on something this morning. I know I probably won't end up saying a thing, and I don't want anyone on here asking me who I am talking about because I'll probably just be over this by the end of the day. This is all very random and I am talking in circles, I have way too many thoughts running through my head so I will drop this subject.
I had a fun week. I spent the day with Rob yesterday which was nice, I always enjoy our time together, plus we watched Titanic which is the best, and then The Punisher was really good. Tonight I am seeing I Love You Man with Javier, Stephanie, Josue and hopefully Amanda, and I hope that is really funny.

I WISH I COULD SAY SOMETHING! But I play it safe. I am so sick of playing things safe. WHAT IS AROUND THE RIVERBEND? Huh Pocahontas?!
Tell me.