"A Moment Like This"

Yesterday I went to American Idol. When we were walking around everyone kept staring at my brother Matt, because he looks exactly like Danny Gokey. And as we were walking to the theatre there was a group of about ten people and as we walked by they were looking and said "That looks exactly like him!" "That is him!" "Danny Gokey!" By the end of the night it totaled to about 40 people thinking he was Danny. It was so much fun, and I couldn't believe how big the theatre was! Kris Allen fans seemed to take over the whole place. Which is good because he is amazing! I really hope he wins, but we will see tonight. It was a much better experience seeing it live, when their voices surround you it really shows how talented they are. Adam sang Mad World, which I was excited for because it was my favorite song that he sang this season. I am not too thrilled with the song that they both had to sing at the end. But then again I have never really liked any of the songs that the idols have to sing. I can't wait to watch tonight's finale and see who wins, either way someone talented will win, but I really hope it is Kris!

"There's Nothing I Can Say"

When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted
To sever the years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder, thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sunk, chill on my brow,
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame;
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me...
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well...
Long, long shall I rue the,
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?
With silence and tears.


Lord Byron certainly knows how to use his words. He took them right out of my mouth with his poem When We Two Parted. Simply amazing. I am glad some people are eloquent. I don't feel this way now. But it is something I wish I heard a long time ago. Funny how things just pop up. I love this poem. And that is why I decided to share it.

"You Talk So Much But You Mean So Little"

I think everybody wants a life of meaning, I know I do. I want to help people, I want to impact people's lives, and I want to be remembered as a person who has always loved everything. I want to love everyone, I may have not liked people in the past, but I am forgetting about everything. I want to start fresh and care about everyone. I was reading my Bible and I just realized that I need to stop caring about certain things. Forgiveness is important when I was around 14 I had problems with that, but ever since about 16 I have always forgiven everyone in my life, no matter how much, or the multiple times they have hurt me; but it is time that I tackle my next big problem and that is to stop judging. I need to stop judging people's clothes, looks, attitudes, choices, everything, because it is their life, not mine. And who am I to judge? I don't want to be judged, so I must stop judging. It will be hard, and I know I may never stop completely, but with God's help I am going to try.

Back to the subject of love. I met someone, who is amazing,but he lives kinda of far not really but it is inconvenient. But the big thing is that I don't want to have my heart broken. I feel like, I don't want to date anyone, not seriously anyway, until I want to get married. I know that may sound stupid, but I once thought I was in love, maybe I was, I am pretty sure I was, and I got my heart ripped out, stomped on and shoved in a blender. I don't ever want to feel that way again. I am so happy right now, I don't want another person to ever make me feel that way again. I guess I am just so scared to open myself up like that again and have it not be returned. Or worse have the feelings returned and then revoked.
They say love is worth taking risks for, but I really don't think feeling like that is worth it. I pray that one day I will meet a man who will love me forever. I don't know when he will come along, but I pray God brings him into my life.
I just find it odd that a person can be your whole world one day, and then not be in your life at all the next. But I know God has a good plan for me, and I will be patient and I have full trust in him that he will take care of me.

I want to stop talking so much about nothing, and bring meaning into my life. How I will do that, I am not sure, I pray for an opportunity to help someone everyday. And maybe I do help people without knowing it, but I will plant the seeds, and hopefully they will grow.

"All Shall Know The Wonder..."

Spring Awakening is being made into a movie musical. Hooray!

I have mixed feelings though, because I find that this particular show should only be on stage, but I am sure that they will do a great job with the movie.

I am definitely keeping my eyes and ears open to find out when auditions are, I assume not anytime soon since they haven't even started writing the film version. They have a director, but no studio and such. But still, I have to audition for this movie, you know, that is if they don't go with the original cast...which I really hope they don't since I don't like them very much.

Talented people, no doubt, but I am just not a big fan.

Tour cast....that is another story, Blake Bashoff, Kyle Riabko, Andy Mientus, and Christy Altomare, are amazing.

Anywho, I am getting off topic.

Spring Awakening will be released in 2011, I believe. I BELIEVE I BELIEVE I BELIEVE, OH I BELIEVE THERE IS LOVE IN HEAVEN.

Sorry...bursting out into Spring Awakening.

They just held open calls in Boston for the replacements for the touring cast, which I have already talked about, I really hope they hold another open call in LA, or heck, I'd even drive to San Francisco or San Diego or Vegas for auditions. Ah the perks of having a car.

If anyone finds out anything about auditions for the movie, or the musical, let me know. I would give anything to play Wendla or Illse.

Well I am going to watch Spring Awakening now. I just love having it on my computer.